Searching Leads to Finding Leads to Searching Something Else

I'm peeking outside the window... try to see things I do not know.
Preparing life as it is... not as will be...

I'm still looking.
Searching, stretching.... Eternally human, eternally seeking.

I am not ready to give up.... but I should.

There is this and there is that. There are things all around me that I choose to see...
I don't care.... I will keep grabbing what I can and I won't give up.

I take what I can, spit it out, chew again.

Searching, finding, using, searching again... so goes the circle.

I am not happy.

Nobody is.